magazine

They tell you beauty is only skin deep.
That with your outer layer you must not compete.
They sell you makeup in a pretty pink bag
and say you look beautiful . when obviously youve been HAD
you desire to be thin
and concider over indulging one of your biggest sins
they tell you beauty is only on the inside
but do they tell you where to go when you need to hide.
they expose you for who you are
strip away your sanity
and say youre going far
they offer you silly antics
play mind games with your romantics
you search for them when you need to unwind
but a artificial person is all you find
some tall blonde girl with a size 2 waste
someone who has obviouly never stuffed thier face
wonderful colors and ways to change your look
its so wonderful what they share with you in thier little book
by the time you have reached the end
you are searching for more of your new superficial best friend
so now you are one of there biggest consumers
you cannot wait till next time to read all of there rumors
you have officially been sucked in
to bad you made a magazine your new best friend

best friend

your voice is silent
but I know what your are saying
I cannot see you
but I can feel you when I'm praying
I talk to you when I am afraid
I run to you
you are my cave
when I cry
you wipe away my tears
I can confess to you my deepest fears
others just wonder about your grace
but everyday I get a glimpse of your face
when the sun beats down on my skin
or just a gentle wind
I can feel you all around
I wish all could believe
in what I have found

set free

Helpless, lost, alone and afraid
that was me yesterday.
Renewed,loved,challanged, scorned
that was the plan before I was born
A woman, mature and strong
called by God to be able to stand on her on.
Weak, unfaithful, sometimes lead astray
that was me the other day
humble, patient, and kind those are the things I long to find
stubborn, tempered, yet well fed
let there be nothing left unsaid
That is me a child of God set free
saving grace, selfishness, disgrace
things that have already taken place
war, trials, tribulation,
instant love and exhilaration
tears, lies, a broken heart
been there done that fell apart
wisdom, brains, knowledge
The Words education not college.
That is me a child of God set free
money, power, fame
things I wish never to explain
pride, jealousy, spite
was once apart of my life
pain, suffering, scars
I am one to charge
guilt, grief , depression
endless time of confession
That is me a child of God set free
hope, joy, light
peace in my life
compassion, forgiveness, faith
fill my hearts space
friends, family, church
voices often never unheard
Ever so wonderful salvation
all these things cancellation
That is me a child of God set free

Change

What causes us to change?
Is it really just growing up and pain
Or is it more than this
Some of us are no smarter than we were when we were kids.
Why do we sell ourselves to others
forget about our family and focus on our lovers
Why do we allow ourselves to be who we are
we all like to think we would never hurt anyone
but is that really true
I find I hurt some people no matter what I do
can a new enviroment really change who we are
maybe we were never true to ourselves
maybe we put ourselves on a shelf
no matter the reason
life always has a season
for change
and things will never be the same
maybe thats growing up
and forgetting from where we came.

Strange

honestly you scare me alot a little of the time.
You make me think of things that would never cross my mind.
I love the way you smile when you really want to frown.
Life would be so majestic even if you were around.
Irony in our relationship is what makes it so unique.
I know the words you want to speak.
Remember no one else loves me the way you do.
I am just not sure how much I really care alot about you.
I know some of you will no be able to understand
but thats ok.. because I am only referring to one person who knows
where I am.

Soul

soul
imagine a life without words
What if the sounds of the earth is all you ever heard?
imagine a life without trees
a world were no one could breath
imagine a life without eyes
image would become a disquise
imagine a world without pain
there would be no one to blame
imagine a life without feeling
what would ever need healing?
imagine a life without time
would we ever need to unwind?
imagine a life without you
what would the rest of the world do?
all of this can sound pretty confusing
if you can imagine what you are losing
If you can imagine all of this
there is one scenerio that still exisit
You know we could not survive these types of situations
Imagine what was left out of this equation